My Best Friend of 22 years!!!!!! I love and miss you Beany!

Last Saturday September 26 I lost my beloved Best friend of almost 23 years! It would have been 23 years this month!
This was one of the hardest things I have ever been through. She was there since i was a child and we were joined at the hip from then on! When I moved out of my parents home she came with me as we could not bare to be seperated! I have never had a roommate and had never lived with anybody (till i was married). Beany was my best friend and she was there for me EVERYDAY no matter what! She had the greatest personality! She had an attitude that most were scared of but I LOVED! We were so much alike in SO many ways! There was never a time she didn't greet me at the door even if I had been on a trip she would great me then let me know she was mad i left her! each night of my life has pretty much been spent with her under my arm! She didn't like to share me when it came to bedtime. I was all she wanted and she would let you know! If you have a cat then you know that they can be pretty sneaky and know how to get what they want! Well she did! Many a nights she would climb right up on the night stand and knock anything and everything off to get me up so she could eat or just get loved on! She was always a very small girl as she never broke the 7lbs mark but if you messed with her you would have thought she was 107lbs(she thought so anyway)!
I'll never forget when Matt and I got married and we introduced his 175lbs Mastiff Maggie to my 7lbs girl. Well long story short Maggie walked in and Beany walked over to her looked her in the face and punched her like three times and walked off. She strutted really! :) Beany never really had affection for any other animal out of the sheer fact i think she just wanted them to know I was hers and that was that! But On the awful day of Maggies passing Beany curled up in her GIANT bed and lay there sad knowing what had just happened. Their relationship was a bit secret as Beany didn't want ppl to know she had a soft side, but one day I walked into the den were Maggies bed was and Maggie had eaten something she wasn't supposed to and I yelled at her to say bad girl... well I turn around and catch my mean lil Beany licking Maggie on the nose as to say "its ok". It melted me due to the fact I had never seen Beany care about anything but me and her little stuffed baby. Anybody who knows me and knows the Beaners can tell you we both share a VERY similar attitude! :) And thats why we loved each other so much!
I'm So lost without my BEAUTIFUL little girl and best friend that I'm not even sure what to do!?!?!? going in and being told she had this form of oral cancer was bad enough but watching it take my baby was awful!
I'm so glad that she was able to get to know Jude and I have the most wonderful video of Judes arrival home from the hospital and Beany greeted us at the door and followed us into Judes room and I sat down and had him in my arms and she promptly jumped up and laid on the breast feeding pillow curled around him while I fed him for the first time at home! It was one of my fondest memories of my lil girl meeting my family! She loved him so much and I think she was more sad then I was when we stopped breast feeding. She loved that time to curl up with the both of us!
There are SO many memories that I have shared with her in the last 22/23 years that I could never begin to put it all down on paper!!! I just miss and love her so much! Nothing will ever be the same without her pretty little green eyes and her little fangs and her soft fur with her warm sweet purr in my ear! I miss her and love her so!

"It broke my heart to lose you,
but you didn't go alone,
part of me went with you,
the day God called you home."